Rendezvous

I've been writing a lot about me and people around me in recent days. Here I'm again to do the same stuff. Yesterday and today were two completely ------------ days ( help me find a good alternative word for " opposite ", even something harsh is acceptable ).Yesterday I was flying with enthusiam, eager, self belief, confidence, a sense of fulfilment and satisfaction and it goes on. I did something that I've wanted to do for a long time. I had all the positive stuff with me yesterday. But today, what ever I did turned out to be a shit.

Today morning, I woke up by myself so as to drop my brother at the railway station ( most of the times my mom has to kick me out of my sleep mode ). It was all pretty normal until I dropped my brother at the station. When coming back, there was this old man who was coming out of the parking lot. He saw me and stopped there. I spotted him when I was at some far distance itself. I was driving pretty slowly only. I blinked my eye and the next moment I saw was the old man on his bike right in front of me withing some 5-6 metres. Yes people, what you think did happen. I finally crashed and fell off my P220 [ ;( ]. Thanks to my crash guard, my bike didn't suffer much damage.

Please spare a thought for me guys. I hurt my leg pretty well. My right leg hit something I didn't notice, probably the other bike and it has swollen a few inches below my knee. I also have two dark spots on the same leg due to it getting burnt when it touched the silencer. Thank goodness, it wasn't too hot. My rear view mirror hit my chest and it is also paining as of now. But I didn't shed blood and all. As soon as I fell, I said to myself, " Thank God, She wasn't with me " and then after I recovered I told myself, " Why did this have to happen to me? ".

It was then pretty normal day as I successfully managed to ensure that my parents don't notice the damage that has happened to me and my bike. I was thinking that the crash should be the only bad moment for the day. But damn me again!!! What an idiot I am?? I did something stupid which I can't tell anyone as I've already done enough damage to myself. I lost respect towards myself. Thats all I can say. I'm bad at expressing what I want to convey. I suck at it big time and it never works for me.

To add to this, I got to speak to my old friend. It was amazing to speak to her but I was completely lost within myself. I didn't know what I was doing. It was just yesterday that I was speaking about this old friend to her. I never expected her to get back and actually request me to speak to her. That was a surprise but it got me into a confused state. I came back home pretty early today and then went shopping. I bloody lost 40 bucks without my knowledge. I came back home and my mom wanted me to make dosas as she wasn't feeling well. I was making it and to add to all the other things through the day, I got my finger burnt. What an amazing day?? Can it get any better?[ ;( ].

Why am I ranting here rather than trying to sort out whatever can actually be sorted? That is because I'm clueless what I got to do and where I stand. Bloody, I feel so very deserted and I just see one person in whatever I do. I sign off. No more emotions here.

Posted by Venkat at 9:51 PM |  

Labels: Rant